Tuesday, April 12, 2011

It's weird how what starts as a normal seeming day can suddenly turn and really shake you up. I am not going to talk about what happened, I'll only say that today I really need my Savior for comfort. I have doubted myself as a mother and a human being today. I've questioned my actions. I've cried, felt betrayed, and been very afraid. But despite all of this, I do not doubt in Christ's ability to make me whole again, or to mend what seems broken beyond repair. I know he can do the impossible. And I will live on the hope he offers me. That is all.

8 comments:

A Few Tacos Shy... said...

Heidi, I love you with all my heart. I am so sorry that you are grieving. Sometimes living on in hope is all we can do.

Hansens said...

That's all we can do sometimes. Hope things get better soon. Let me know if there is anything I can do for you. Being a mother is just plain hard and sometimes heartbreaking. All we can do is our best.

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Jenna said...

You need a baby to snuggle with? Love you more than words can say...

jaimie said...

Heidi, I am so sorry that something happened that is hard. I love that you put so much faith in the Savior during hard times though. You are an inspiration of who to have faith in when things fall apart.

I feel like we all have awful things happen throughout life, but not all of us handle them with the strength that you show here. Last Sunday during sacrament I sang the line from the 4th article of faith in my head that said, "First faith in the Lord Jesus Christ" and it hit me very strongly that faith in Jesus Christ is key.

I know that things will work out for you because you do have faith in Christ. They just will. See you Thursday :)

Heather S. said...

Heidi, first of all, even if you doubted yourself today. I think you are a great mother and you have always been a great example to me. I don't have any idea what happened but unfortunately we all have choices to make and sometimes they aren't the best ones. People can have been taught everything and still not make the best choices. Once again, I have no idea what happened but I am just trying to get across that you are an extremely competent friend, wife, mother, sister, etc. I love you and I will definitely be praying for you. Please let me know if I can do anything for you. (((HUGS))) You are the best, seriously!

Joni said...

I love you, Heidi!

I don't know what you're going through right now, but I'm thinking of you and praying for you.

Trisha said...

The first thing I thought while reading this was that your preparation of doing the everyday little things (your morning study, for example) will get you through. You are a wonderful person!