I often think about how when something great is going to happen, something scary or traumatic happens first. Joseph Smith, for example, when he went into the Sacred Grove to pray, knelt down and was overpowered by a feeling and presence of darkness, and he feared for his life. Just when he thought all was lost, he saw a light above him and Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ appeared and spoke to him and called him by name. I do not mean to compare myself to the prophet, but rather to compare similar experiences I have had in my life to this experience of his. It gives me hope and makes me a little excited (despite my fear and sorrow) to know that something great is going to happen in the future. Healing, forgiveness, progress, and repair are what this current experience offer me the chance for. Thank you all for your kind comments, concern, and love. It means a lot to know you all care. Your have lifted me, and I thank you for that.